so i dont know how many people are actually going to look at this but i thought it would be cool to write some things im thinking.

i dont even know where to really begin. i have so much on my mind how do i type it all.

i had a convo with a friend from san fran yesterday who is 28 and graduated from penn state. right now he is at the academy of art studying to be a graphic designer. anyways he is at that age in the mormon culture where he should be thinking about getting married and supporting a family, but he isnt really worried about it. and then there is me this crazy 20 year old who thinks about it non stop. everyone keeps telling me not to worry about it but its not that easy.

i have gotten better. i made the deicison to prepare for a mission, but then i met with my bishop and he told me not to worry about that now. jeez! everyone is going to make me go crazy!

i know that the most important thing is to turn to heavenly father, but like a lady in gospel doctrine spoke about last week in church...

How easy is it really to let God's will be your will?

ITS SO HARD!

but i am going to do my best, i am going to try to let gods will be mine.